Making the IMPOSSIBLE .... POSSIBLE

Why Hello again.

Hope your week has been as Wonderful, Strange, Inspirational, Educational, Magical, and filled with amazing things as mine has.

Everything in life happens for a reason and I'm starting to believe that more and more.

Some times you just need to find that special something inside you and run full force into the unknown with no fear of failure.

I do this quite often and it usually takes me to intresting places.

Today's blog comes with a bit of adventure, a little journey down my road of soul searching, Trying to figure out where i belong and which road i wanted to venture down based on my past experiences, a few fun events, Beauty, And so much more.

I realized i needed to stop dwelling on things and It was time to make things happen for myself.

In my last blog i mentioned i put a resume in at a local print house in N Portland for a mail room position.

Unfortunately they were looking for a machine operator/ mechanic. My qualifications didn't make me a likely candidate. No Biggie there has to be a perfect place of employment out there for me.

Don't you go giving up on me quite yet cause i am far from giving up and the story is just beginning.

I decided my best approach to this would be to take the advice of the quote below.

Brian and i decided maybe a mini adventure was in order to get out of the city and clear our minds and enjoy a little nature.

We hopped in the car and headed east on 84 i saw a sign for a back road and figured lets travel off the beaten path today and i quickly turned off that exit.

Beautiful waterfalls, rivers, trees, hiking trails, and curvy back woods roads awaited us.

Oregon has many many beautiful waterfalls, Lush green forests that remind me of fern gully.

We drove for a wile passing close to 8 waterfalls.

Sorry for the lack of pictures of the waterfalls but i promise there are many other pictures to come for you to enjoy.

Farther down the road i pulled off to a day parking lot by a hiking trail and opened the door and let Brian run free in nature while i wandered around at my own speed.

I did however catch him wandering over the suspension bridge into the forest.

I couldn't have asked for a nicer day.

After wandering in the woods for a bit we headed over to the Gorge to wander the PCT for a bit and to grab a small snack. We also found This beautiful Sacajawea Statue facing west by the river. It was quite a magical day. And not yet over.

Upon returning to Portland i dropped Brian off at home and went to meet with my friend Tiffany for Girls night out.

We went out for sushi. I am such a cheap date when it comes to sushi. My 1/2 of the bill usually comes to around $5 to $10 tops. Yummm

After Sushi we ventured Back to Tiffany's Condo and decided to check out the indoor pool.

We hung out in the jacuzzi for a bit then decided to be silly and swim laps and race back and forth under water in the pool. It was so much fun. After our swim we ventured into the ladies room to change and i noticed to lights on the wall with a timer. I questioned if those lights were what i suspected they were? I turned the knob and WHAM Yup It was the strangest tanning set up i had ever seen. Of course we couldn't resist the photo ops while trying to avoid the Possibility of getting a fake tan.

The next day Was Danielle's Baby shower. I showed up early to help her get everything ready for the rest of her guests to arrive. The venue was pretty.

It was nice to meet some of her other friends.

Shawn and Danielle were spoiled with tons of amazing gifts for their soon to be born little girl.

I fail at taking pictures at her baby shower but i know soon enough pictures taken by her other friends will be emerging on Facebook. 

I did however snap a picture of the plastic babies and candy on each table with my phone. 

But for the most part it was dark and due to lack of flash on my phone i couldnt get alot of pics. 

The picture below is of Danielle taken by a local Photographer AmbeRed.

Danielle is perfectly 9 months pregnant in this picture and all baby.

I could only wish that if i ever have a child that i can look that good at 9 months.

And yes i did ask Danielle permission to use this picture.

I cant wait to meet Raven the beautiful lil girl in her belly.

She is due any day now.

Even tho I'm not blood related I'm excited to be an aunt.

After the baby shower I helped Load up the car with all the fun baby stuff she received and cleaned up the Venue. From there Danielle and I headed back to her place unloaded everything into the babies room and went to grab a bite.

Shawn and the Rest of the guys from Alabama Black Snake were Playing a show that night so after dinner we decided to go check out their set.

The Bar they played reminded me of CBGB's a little bit just lacking the NYC Punk and Hardcore History.

Below is a picture i took in the bathroom mirror at the club. Sort of a distorted view of me.

Turns out on Monday nights the EAST END Has Metal Night and its $2 for 2 bands that go head to head and are judged on Riffage, Style, and many other things.

Alabama Black Snake Rocked the House.

They played an amazing set and had changed a few songs around and it blew my mind.

This may have been the best set i had heard and seen them play yet.

I'm convinced they need to record a new Demo. 

They have grown so much in the past 6 months and the addition of their new singer and second guitar player Brian really was what they needed. 

Just the whole flow of their talents combined amazes me.  

I really wish my husband Brian would realize that our super secret friendship rings don't give us mind reading powers.

But as every day passes i realize i married the man who has grown to become my  best friend.

He doesnt judge me. He tolerates my insanity. And he understands im not perfect. 

After all the excitement of the past few days i decided it was time to put the peddle to the metal and get things done.

Time to chase the rainbow. Hopefully my plans and dreams down end up down the drain like the rainbow oil slick i found. in my parking lot.

I have a habit of expecting the best and thinking to positive that i set myself up for major let downs.

Damn me for being an overly positive Panda.

I decided since The first Job i was hopeful about wasn't a perfect fit for me,

It was time to try the other 3 that i hand picked considering my small amount of work experience on the books that i could actually put on paper, with high hopes.

Turns out real jobs dont see being a once sucessful photographer as a Solid job on a resume. 

Just then i got a call from a temp agency that i had been hounding for weeks looking for leads on employment called they had a job looking for an employee in air freight and wanted my permission to send over my resume. I said sure why not. 

In the mean time i got all dressed up in my business suit that i bought for a court date when i was 17.

The jacket still fit but the pants had to be replaced for a bigger size. Damn you hips, Butt, and thighs.  

I Printed out my revised Resume, Cover Letter, and Letter of Recommendation.

And off i went. I was confident, and had it in my mind i was coming home with a promise of employment. 

The first Place i went was a mail room on our side of town. I got to meet with a lady who told me i picked perfect timing to walk thru their door. Turns out she had to make a decision on an employee to fill a position that day. I chatted with her for a little while and filled out an application.

Explained my experience in this field and got a quick rundown of the position offered.

I left there feeling very confident that i would hear back from this lady in the next few days.

Her questions after interving me for the job included does cursing bother you?

My response where i come from in NJ they use curses for commas.

Second question are you a smoker?

UM YES

she said great you will fit in perfectly.

From there i headed to the second place on my list of places i would love to work.

The woman i needed to speak to was in a meeting so i left my resume with the lady at the front desk.

The third place was a little over 45 minutes away and i decided to call and see if they were looking to grow their team. They said no so i scratched that one off my list and headed home.

My gut was telling me i may soon have a job.

The next morning i got a call from the temp agency that i had a phone interview at the air freight company for customer service.

Now my mom works in air freight and there is money to be made in it and i have nothing against it,

 But i believe my mom fell into air freight and was a single mother and sort of got stuck in it. 

Don't get me wrong she is damn good at her job and she is grateful to have fallen into the industry to support me and herself but i really had my heart set on working in a mail room and learning machines and one day possibly in 3 or so years moving up to learning professional off set photo and running print machines.

Or doing screen printing or something artistic again. 

But i did the phone interview and gave it my all.

Then i received an email from job 2 that they could only offer me part time at the moment but would like to meet with me.

From the static in my hair and the quick responses from these companies I'm starting to think I'm Electric Today.

I decided since I'm on a roll why not try my hand with our taxes and see how much we will be getting back so i can try to make a dent in my evil evil student loans.

Upon finishing our Federal Tax return papers, I realized that there was a light at the end of the dark dark tunnel and after we give the full amount of our return to student loans that I'm only 8-21 months away from having them fully paid off depending on the amount i can afford to send.

 That is something i thought was IMPOSSIBLE.

I feel so close yet so far still.

 But 8- 21 months is better than 5-10 years i guess.

A few days ago Brian and i got a small chicken for dinner and Brian saved the wish bone for me.

We decided to see who got the bigger side and test the theory that wishes can come true.

The next morning I woke to an array of phone calls all of them great news.

Job offers usually come to me in groups of two or three and that didn't fail me this time.

The first call was from The Mail Room job offering me around 36 hours a week and a pay rate that would help us make ends meet and allow us to pay off a few things in due time and still save a few dollars.

This job was also on my side of town less than 20 blocks away and told me they would like to eventually train me on machines and their computers.

I get to wear jeans, T-shirts, Hoodies, and boots or tennis shoes to work too.

I felt that this job would be a great match for what i was looking for and the people i was introduced to at the job seemed like a great crew to work with.

But i have to remember people also like to candy coat things to reel you in.

BUT

 i accepted the Offer anyway.

They told me that they looked forward to me starting Monday morning at 7am.

An hour later i got a call from the temp agency offering me employment at the Air Freight company. Now the pay there was $1 more an hour but also 35 minutes farther from home and i didn't get the same warm feeling about the place as i did with the mail room.

Then i received an email from the second place i dropped my resume off with an offer for 20 hours a week which i had to turn down.

I'm beyond honored that 3 different companies were interested in adding me to their team.

But in the end I am excited I chose the one i did and cant wait to start on Monday morning.

Brian's Birthday is creeping up on us. He will be the big 34 on Friday.

He keeps mentioning that due to his work schedule he doesn't get to have guys night out often.

I mentioned this to a few of our friends and we came up with the idea to surprise Brian with a guys night out at devils point as a mini surprise Early birthday gathering.

We figured that he would never expect anything to happen a week early and with Daniele's due date creeping up we figured it would be nice if Shawn and Danielle could be there to celebrate Brian's birthday with him.

I'm sorry i didn't take a million pictures of the night but it is a strip club n they have rules against cameras and

i was just trying to enjoy the evening and am still mad at my camera.

Brian of course got a delicious Red Velvet cake his favorite.

He even got to make a wish. I hope what ever it was comes true.

He deserves it.

He was so grateful that Danielle and the guys came out to celebrate with him.

The night was filled with Laughs, Beers, Boobs and Bread.

Due to how busy the bar was we decided to enjoy the cake outside.

I'm happy everyone was able to make it Devils Point

He truly loves that bar. I was a little sad that one of my two favorite ladies wasn't working that night but we still had a great night.

Brian is super stoked over his birthday present a new rain shell jacket.

It surprisingly fits him perfect.

And he has a new rain jacket to use to ride his bike to work regardless of the weather and can stay dry.

and he can stop depending so much on me.

Last night i had the weirdest dreams that i was late for work and i woke every hour realizing i was dreaming.

So Weird.

Once getting out of my bed and moving to the couch i decided i had a hot snuggle date with my Panda blanket my aunt Lynn gave me for Xmas on the couch while watching my favorite movie Pay it Forward

In turn i ended up sleeping a lot longer than expected once i snuggled up on the couch and it sunk in that it was Sunday and i had till at least noon to rest. That turned into alot later than i could have expected.

Once fully awake I decided to indulge in a little Coffee Ice Cream with typing up This blog entry.

Wow i don't know if it has completely sunk in that i get to start a new job tomorrow.

I'm excited but at the same time a little nervous.

Did i make the right choice out of the three job offers?

The hardest part of this is going to be shifting my hours back to normal people hours instead of Brian's grave yard shift hours but I'm confident that i can do it.

And I am going to be AWESOME at it.

Its going to be weird working opposite hours from Brian but i also see it helping us to be more grateful of the time we do get to spend together.

It will give us time to mature in our own ways and maybe in due time his job will convert his work hours to allow us to spend more time together. I'm not stressing. Life has a way of working its self out in weird ways for great reasons.

I have a feeling that more amazing things are going to start happening in the next few months.

I plan on proving that what some think is completely

IMPOSSIBLE 

Truly is 

POSSIBLE

WE will continue to beat the odds and Like a pair of  Phoenixes  

WE will continue to grow and Succeed  

I promise to continue Updating and sharing our story with you all.

I keep battleing with the idea of opening up  and sharing my past and my journey to where i am today with you all.

But im not sure you are ready for that tornado just yet.

I have started typeing up the book i keep mentioning.

The names of the guilty will be changed including my own.

It will be a no hold barred book of the full turth.

Its time to let the skeletons out of the closet and make peace with myself

But telling the whole truth.

But till my next update here is a question to ask yourself.  

Till next time.

Thank you for taking the time to read and follow our journey thus far. 

I'm off to sleep to be well rested for my 1st day of work at Mail room Ville Portland.

LOL for some sad reason i think only Adrienne back in NJ will get that reference But Thank you again.