GOOD BYE 30!!!!

Well Its been a long time since i updated. 

And another year of my life or should i say chapter of this book is 

Coming to an end. 

And yet another new beginning is here. 

Tomorrow is my Birthday and i will begin the 31st year of my life. 

Im happy to close the chapter of 31. 

It has been a rough year. 

Lots of ups and downs. 

Lots of unique roads with twits and turns if i may say. 

I thought 30 was going to be this amazing year in my life 

But to say the least It was one of those years that i learned more than i could have ever expected. 

I may not be perfect 

And i may not be an angel by any means. 

But i can for sure say 

I live and have lived an interesting life thus far. 

I still have days where I battle with demons in my head 

Some days are wonderful and i just live them like theres no tomorrow 

with out any worries in my mind. 

I often find me reminding myself that 

I know a lot f people are on the fence with the fact that i quickly moved in with a man.

I know people like to talk for what ever reason.

So be it. 

Its life and its mine. 

If i feel something in my heart I'm going to go for it.

I have been extremely happy with Dan for the past few months 

And he has found a home in my heart. 

Yeah some days are tough 

Considering we have both been through a lot in life and over the past year on our own paths. 

But its nice to have each other to talk to and attempt to cheer each other up at the end of the day. 

Life wasn't ment to be easy. 

If it was then what fun would that be?

So why not have a little fun trying to make it through the tough times. 

Life has found a way of making me smile since Dan has entered my life. 

And in my mind that is a good thing. 

I just have to remember Im where i am today cause i choose to walk to where i am. 

My story has lead me here. 

Back to NJ. 

Which for once isn't a bad thing. 

I like being near my family. 

It puts some comfort in my mind and my heart. 

I still feel broken and fragile on some days. 

If life was perfect i would be writing a fairy tale and not this blog.

With my ups and downs I'm lucky that Dan is patient with me.

And understanding for the most part. 

I know a lot of you have asked why i haven't posted a blog in about 2 months now.

And I'm still not sure if i was ready to write an update but felt i should close out 30 with one. 

Well I personally needed some down time to just be me. 

To settle into my new life, My new relationship, and my new home. 

(heck I'm still not unpacked cause i think we may be moving in the next month or 2) 

I had to get over some things that were bothering me and battle some unexpected demons.

So I took my down time and spent some time with my feet up.

I let life slow down a bit. 

Took sue time to breathe.

And began to enjoy art again. 

I started enjoying simple things in life again. 

Like fun free days at the park with dan and his daughter  and her friend

Feeding Peacocks .

Laughing and smiling

Picking out an annoying family pet or two.

Meet one of Kaylas new Crazy escape artist Hamsters.

Enjoying cuddles from Tessie the cute french bull dog. 

She's my buddy

And doing arts and crafts with Kayla  creating more friends Like Rocky the giant pet rock. 

My health has had its ups and downs since I've been back. 

My foot is finally healed. 

But is a little tight and will never be 100% the same but ill settle for being able to wear a shoe and walk on my own two feet again.

But on the down side, My kidneys started giving me problems again which took me back to the doctor and I found out that me and the Flu do not get along. 

At least I'm back by people who care, My family and friends. 

And they are close by if i need them. 

Heck my mom even allowed me to take a nap in her driveway the other day cause i wanted to be outside with her but didn't feel good. 

Its been nice to reconnect with Friends like Shannon

Yup she's the girl i loved enough to tattoo on my leg. 

Trouble reunited.

Ive known her since i was 13yrs old. 

Its been nice to spend time with Adrienne and her kids 

Faith and Arianna 

Acting like crazy creatures in the park scooting around talking to the animals. 

Ive had the pleasure of going out in my home town to the bar with my Mom, Stan and Dan

I even had the pleasure of capturing Stan and Dan singing the grateful dead together.   

We have been spending ALOT of time at Dans tattoo shop. 

More than i may like sometimes. 

But its teaching me what it takes to be a business owner and work for your self. 

Dan doesn't do Tattoos but Rose City Tattoos in Rahway. But He owns it and this shop has been his Baby for 6 Years now. 

He Built it from the ground up and i admire him for going into business for himself. 

Its still taking a lil getting used to that this partially has turned into my life too. 

But as i used to say when i worked for Phil running the skate shop.

The business owner should be extremely involved with the business' daily happening.

I admire Dan for all he puts into his shop. 

This place has his heart and soul poured into it. 

During the good and bad. 

But if you walk into the shop you can tell Dan has spent a lot of time Making this shop home. 

And i think he did an amazing job at doing so. 

Some days its tough to accept this place is his second child. 

But i love him and know If i want to be part of his life then the shop will be part of mine too. 

I enjoy spending time with his new Artist Lynn.

She is a breathe of fresh air and super sweet. 

And a pretty damn good artist too. 

Right now They have a special going on till Halloween 

Lynn drew up a few sheets of flash That they are only charging $50 for anything off these sheets in full color. Below is an example of one of her flash sheets and one of her finished Tattoos off the sheet. 

Dan n I managed to get away one day with Kayla for a trip to new hope. 

It was a fun day for the three of us. 

With beautiful weather to top it. 

Completely off subject but in the order of how life has been happening.

I had a little mental break down the other day.

I took a little trip to the Social Security Office.

To regain my identity As Tiffany Harned

Well It was a 123 event of regaining my name there.  

The DMV was a completely different story. 

They gave me a hassle about regaining my name and my Permission to drive in this state. 

Believ it or not it was easier on paper to take on the name of a stranger than to get back the one i was born with. 

I went though a few days of being extremely confused and a bit moody. 

I discovered on certain paper work i was forgetting what name i should sign since it had been way too long since i had signed my maiden name,

I almost forgot how to sign it. 

My ATM Card was in my married name and my DL was in my maiden. 

One would assume getting MY REAL NAME BACK would be easy on the mind and would be a joyful thing. But it was a bit of a toll on my mind.

Even though I now Enjoy having my Birth name back. 

It was easier to change it back on FB than it was on every inch of paper that makes me myself to the government. 

I guess when they say divorce isn't easy. 

This may be one part of what they were talking about. 

Enough debbie downer talk Back to some excitement. 

After that ordeal It was nice to  have a fun lunch with Dan and Kayla and a nice game of checkers to take my mind off over thinking things. 

Ive been having fun being fun and random with Kayla on some days. 

One morning we decided to be cute and dress up as a panda and a tiger and go out in the rain to pick flowers for dan to get him our of a grumpy mood. 

"What man can stay grumpy when your daughter and girlfriend wake you up to cuddles and flowers dressed as animals. 

I love spending time with Kayla. 

Dan took it upon himself to Surprise Kayla and I with Presents. 

Turns out he for an artist who specialized in POP ART.

The artist had some pieces that he already had made and reproduces for sale online.

And Dan asked if the guy had any of Penny wise the Clown 

The guy said no but that he could make one. 

So Dan commissioned the artist to make me a Pennywise and Kayla a Gizmo. 

I adore my Pennywise.

And I love that for once i have a boyfriend that gets what i like. 

Besides all of that I'm sure you are wondering what is going on with my Job ?

How am i supporting myself?

Well As much as i love the Yeti Team 

We all realized That i wasn't making much progress in Sales as they had wished i could, 

And being back here in NJ was making it a little difficult to set up meetings and work on projects with the team. 

The time difference also took a minor toll on everything too. 

And on top of  everything i started to think a career with health ins. may be good for me since i have become accident prone and my kidneys started acting up again. 

So in a very friendly manor i parted ways wishing them the best of luck in their endeavors 

and i moved onto my next employment venture. 

With a little luck and a few good friends and OH of course my MOM.

I landed a job doing customer service for the Linehaul company that was so kind to ship my life back and forth the country a few times. 

Its basically a 9-5 where i answer phones and do some data entry and help track trucks and freight across the USA.

Oh and i have to dress normal for this job too. 

I got my own desk and a laptop to work from. And it may not be as creative or free as my vision of what i would be doing for a living may have been. 

But it is a weekly pay check with health benefits to come soon and a 401K 

(what ever the heck that may be)

Its nice that every day on my way to work i get a glimpse of the NYC sky line. 

And it reminds me of where i came from and why i enjoyed growing up here on the east coast.

I took a few hours to take a walk down by the Jersey city Water front down by ellis island with a view of NYC and the Statue of Liberty

It was nice to check out the memorials they had put up for the twin towers. 

After my walk at Liberty state park i was blessed with the Chance to attend a Company Dinner with drinks when all of the sales people flew in to discuss the future of our company and how there is so much room to grow with this company. 

The place we went for dinner was beautiful. 

It over looked NYC and the Freedom tower which is in progress of being built in the place of the twin towers. 

They even had a larger than life out door chess board. 

LIFE IS ACTUALLY PRETTY GOOD AS OF THE MOMENT.....

I don't have much to complain about at the moment. 

Ive had the amazing opportunity of getting to spend time with my MOM and Stan and DAD and Fran. 

Ive had a few nice days where i got to enjoy a bite to eat and great conversation with my GRANDMA AND GRANDPA. Who i love them both dearly. 

Some days i feel like they expected more from me. But they have always been so supportive in everything i have ventured into I am beyond Grateful to have them in my Life. 

I LOVE YOU GRANDMA AND GRANDPA.

OH AND MOM STAN, DAD, and can't forget Fran. 

I don't know what i would have done in life with my amazing Family.

Its so nice to be back. 

Even though there aren't enough hours in the day to see them nearly 1/2 as much as i would like to. 

Speaking of Family Dan and i attended my cousin Brendas wedding last weekend. It was nice to get all dressed up with him and intro due him to my dads side of the family and see my cousin marry the love of her life. 

Congrats BRENDA AND STEVE. 

Below is a picture of Dan and i all dressed up from that night. 

Im a lucky lady to have a man like Dan to make me smile. 

And don't worry i didn't catch the bouquet 

But that may be because Dan and i spent way too much time in the awesome photo booth they had set up at their wedding. 

Below is a few pics i choose to put together from the many sheets of photos we walked away with. 

He is just as much of a goof ball as I am when there is a camera around. 

AND I LOVE IT!!!!

Its nice to smile again, Its nice to have a partner in Crime and a partner in life that is as amazing as he is. 

We are sort of inseparable. Ive only been back in NJ and with him since the beginning of september yet it feels like we have been together for a life time already. 

And I'm ok with that. 

Im comfortable talking to him about everything 

Is this what a REAL RELATIONSHIP IS LIKE?

IS THIS WHAT ITS LIKE TO HAVE AN EQUAL?

IS THIS WHAT I HAVE BEEN MISSING OUT ON ALL MY LIFE?

ILL TAKE IT....

Its so nice that we communicate, we look out for each other, and if one is having a bad day the other encourages to turn the day around to make it a good one. 

We take care of each other when one doesn't feel good, 

And we work together to find solutions with things instead of yelling or throwing temper tantrums. 

Oh such a breathe of fresh air. 

IM A VERY VERY LUCKY GIRL. 

I Love spending time with him and His daughter.

And even his whole Family. 

His mom and dad and sister her husband and his brother and his brothers wife are all amazing too. 

This is to be honest the first time i have had a boyfriend that comes from a good family who he is close with. 

AND I LOVE IT.

Its a nice change to be with someone who believes in being close to their family too. 

Well its late and i could type for another 12 hours about everything that has been going on with my life and my mind. 

But IT JUST TURNED MIDNIGHT 

AND THAT MEANS I AM OFFICIALLY 31 Years OLD!!!!!!

So I am going to go get some rest and prepare for what ever this next chapter has in store for me.  

I have an over load of pics that didn't make it into this blog

But i promise a new blog next week end. 

Thank you taking the time to read my rambles of where life has taken me.

I promise the next blog will be more intense 

A lot more fun

And if your lucky I may take you down the rabbit hole and back up into Wonderland.

Till next time.  

Operation Righteous Cowboy Lighting

I apologize for the delay in this update but it was a rough 2 days of driving. 

Lets just say i should have taken up a career as a truck driver with the amount of hours i put in on the road.

32 Hours driving in 2 days. 

Our Righteous Trip through cowboy country turned into a lighting fast trip through the rest of the states. 

But still B and i managed to have some fun along the way. 

So where did i leave off. 

I believe B and i were crashed out at the Loves rest stop 

Near a field in the middle of texas awaiting Leather Face from Texas Chainsaw Massacre to.......

 Um no that was a dream 

well at least the leather face part was. 

We woke around 8am him in the front seat and me in the back. 

We were glowing with joy cause we each had a can of spray paint and the sun finally came up

And we were at the FAMOUS Cadillac Ranch in Amarillo Texas 

Cadillac Ranch is a random Field in Texas where the owner of the land decided to have a bunch of old Cadillacs buried nose first in the ground and they allow people to spray paint them. 

Below is a picture of the Cadillac Ranch

B and I had a field day me with a can of black paint and B with a Green can. 

And of course The monkey mask had to come with us too. 

B and I had a lot of fun climbing on the old Cadi's 

We left our mark on each and every one. 

I couldn't stand to pass up a photo Opp while there 

I have more pictures than i know what to do with. 

We spent a good Hour just monkeying around 

B showed off his skills. 

I relaxed and enjoyed the moment 

We ended up giving the remainder of our cans of paint to 2 ladies who kept mentioning they wished they had stopped at the home depot to pick up cans. 

Upon leaving we realized there is a whole lot of nothing in Texas though my mind kept getting lost as we followed the trains. 

I may have gypsied around a bit in my day i have never hopped trains. 

I always remember driving this route and wondering what the country would look like with my feet hanging out the side of a train box car. 

Its nice to get lost in my thoughts but time to throw those out the window. 

If i thought i was getting too old to do a lot of the things i thought i still could. 

I am deff too old for gypsy train hopping dreams. 

Back to reality. 

It really is time for me to settle down. 

That being said. 

Oh look a telephone pole. The first sign of something out here in Texas besides steers and queers. 

Just joking but there really is a whole lot of nothing besides cows and fields. 

A little farther down the road we saw this huge cross. 

They say everything is bigger in Texas and oh my gosh this for sure is. 

We decided a pit stop was in order since we didn't know if we were going to see anything else that caught our interest for the next few hours. 

Turns out this pit stop was a religious rest area. 

They had the re enactment of the the stages of curifixation of christ. 

And all kinds of other interesting statues. 

Like the arch angel battling the serpent 

We went and joined Jesus in the Breaking of bread 

Then we hit the road. 

If you look to the right that one lane road is Old route 66 

And the double line road is I-40. 

B asked why they didn't just turn old route 66 into the freeway 

I think that would have been wrong but i guess everyone has their own opinions. 

It was 105 degrees out in the desert of texas 

and i was feeling goofy but cranky . 

Sooner than we knew it we crossed into Oklahoma 

We thought it would cool down there but we were very very wrong. 

My memories of driving through Oklahoma were usually sparrows flaying along side my car almost racing me. 

It was so amazing and one of my favorite memories of driving this route.

But considering i had never driven through This area in the dead heat of August i didn't know that it was even too hot for the sparrows to come out and play. 

Even though it was even hotter there but we still found the time and energy to stop and smell the flowers. 

We pulled off in Elk City at the Route 66 Museum 

Half the block was set up to Mock certain famous spots of the Historic Mother Road. 

I decided it was time to Play and be silly again. 

This time i was a good old cow girl. 

Helping out with a little farming 

Due to Old Route 66 and I-40 running along the main Train routes they had old trains on exhibit too. 

Howdy there This little straw hat sherif was having a fun day 

We also had the opportunity to go explore an old Tee Pee 

They are quite roomy inside, 

I love this picture below. 

most of the drive through Oklahoma looked like below. 

One side of the road looked like fall and the other summer 

I guess the sun only roasts one side of the road which is so weird to me. 

The clouds were fluffy and looked like smurf hats,

After a million hours of driving the whole way through Oklahoma we finally entered 

You guessed it. 

Here is where we get off I-40 and start heading north. 

Leaving the flat land filled with nothing behind. 

But were greeted by Rain and Rainbows. 

Remember that storm i kept mentioning that everyone need to stop warning me about. 

Well we found it. 

The sky began to turn weird colors and the clouds started moving Fast. 

B and I were on tornado watch and got a little freaked out. 

We called Dad for a weather update and the picture below was what he sent us. 

EEEEEEEKKKKKKK..........

lucky us we didn't see any real tornados

As the clouds started to clear we pulled off to fuel up and got to see the most beautiful sun set ever. 

I decided to push on into the night as we passed Saint Louis which for some weird reason didn't have the Arch lit up. 

And we entered 

Soon after entering Illinois we realized that it should have been time for dinner hours ago. 

So we pulled into A CRACKER BARREL. 

I love Cracker Barrel

B and i both had a full meal. 

He got a steak and i got the 4 veggie side plate. 

Yum Spinach, fried apples, Okra, and carrots.

While waiting for our food we had more Brother and sister bonding chat and i taught B how to play one of the brian games they have on the tables. 

Once in a blue moon i can figure this game out but not tonight after so many hours behind the wheel. 

After dinner we decided it was best to push on and put as many miles behind us as possible since B had work tuesday which cut into our fun time. 

 A few miles down the road we pulled off for me use the rest room. 

B decided to stay in the car

I decided to give Dan a call on my walk across the lot. 

As i approached the building i noticed a sign that said rest rooms closed. 

I had waited so long to pull over getting back in the car was not an option. 

I turned around to continue my conversation on the phone and had the day lights scared out of me as i thought what looked like a statue in the bushes on the side of building made a noise. 

So here i am on the phone, In a dark parking lot with a ton of trucks pulled over and I had to pee and was freaked out by the guy sleeping in the bushes with his feet up on a box. 

I ran back to the Car to get B .

I approached his door and opened it and scared the heck out of him cause he didn't expect me to open his door. 

He jumped and i looked at him and told him this was going to be a weird question considering i was his sister but 

I asked him to come walk into the darkness with me and stand guard so i could pee behind a bush without having an encounter with a homeless person or an animal. 

Still on the phone B walks over into the darkness with me and stands guard. 

On our walk back to the car me and B were both filled with giggles. 

As Dan was probally wondering what was wrong with me as he listened from the other end of the phone while sitting in NJ. 

Just then i heard what sounded like birds chirping and i looked over and asked B why are the birds out in the middle of the night. 

He laughed and said I don't know. 

Just then i looked up and there were a ton of Bats swarming above our heads. 

I began screaming and jumped in the car still in shock. 

B began to laugh at me and i completely forgot i was still on the phone as the laughter from the other end of the line began to ring in my ears,

Not only was i scared of the Dark, The homeless guy i swore that was a statue and now Bats 

Tripple fail for me on many levels. 

Below is the best picture i could get of the swarm of bats in the parking lot. 

After that weird incident we hopped back in the car and continued driving into the night. 

I pushed myself as hard and as far as possible and pulled a 16 hour day driving

and covered a whole 915 miles. 

As the map shows below on Route 1 

I was so beat after that many hours behind the wheel we decided to just crash in the car.

So i turned off the car reclined the seat and passed out.

Day 5

We woke around 

With a mission in Mind. Escape the storms and make it home it was the last thing we did. 

We pushed off into the storm 

Crossing into 

Finally things started turning green and the rain slowly stopped. 

And the fields filled up with Life. 

Indiana didn't take long to drive through. 

But was a nice change of scenery 

As we passed into 

B swears Ohio Looks just like PA. 

Usually i stop in Ohio to see friends but this time we just kept on trucking 

Giggling when we passed Xenia and a tressle remembering the movie GUMMO

The skies turned Blue and we were finally able to roll our windows down. 

After a few hours in Ohio we crossed into 

It started to feel like we were Flying through the states like lighting 

You know its so wild and wonderful and it takes 30 minutes to drive through. 

B celebrated when we hit the PA state line. 

He said finally Home. 

I laughed and toke him this was the biggest state we drive through. 

He mentioned that he really wanted to see what was west in the state he lives in. 

It was getting Late and we were only in the middle of PA. 

Both of us were getting tired and we had only been on the road for a straight 12 hours only stopping to get gas and pit stops to pee. 

And we still had this far to go

i looked over at B and told him to please tell me a story.

He said he didn't have any.

So in turn i picked up my headphone for my cell and called Dad and asked him to tell me a story and he said he didn't have any. 

I hung up with Dad and called Dan asked him to tell me a story 

He said hold on. 

I told him do not go grab a harry potter book. 

He told me i know him too well. 

He told me hold on again and i handed my brother one of my head phones and dan started reading us the Grinch who stole Christmas and Mad Libbing it. 

This was great any ideas of sleep had just turned into Laughter and giggles. 

I finally made it to B's place around 11pm. 

He was so happy to get home, shower and have a beer. 

We hugged and said our good byes. 

I told B he should adventure down to NJ to see Dad and i in the near future. 

He said since I'm home he will try to. 

I love my lil brother and am happy i got to share this road trip with him. 

Even if the last two days were a little stressful with us pushing the hours in the car and on the road a little far. 

As for me i still had 2.5 hrs on the road 

As i hit the road i followed my GPS to get back to the freeway since this was my first time to my brothers apartment and the town he lives in. 

back onto the Dark Dark freeway picked up the phone made a call to MOM and Then DAD 

And finally called Dan to stay on the phone with me to keep me awake for the rest of the ride. 

Finally i crossed over the Deleware river and saw this sign

I had never been so happy to see that sign. 

about an hour and 30 minutes and i finally made it to The house. 

I was so weak and beat from the drive i almost collapsed upon getting out of the car. 

Dan helped me walk into the house 

And to my surprise he had gotten Balloons to welcome me home. 

He is too cute and sweet. 

I was way too tired to show my appreciation

All that was on my mind as wrong as it sounds was food, Shower, SLEEP !!!!

It felt good to be home and it felt good to feel safe.

I am so grateful....

I ended up sleeping most of the next day 

Ive been in a weird daze feeling like I'm living in a dream 

Im slowly waking up from that daze as each day passes

but to say the least its great to be close to my family and friends.

Its amazing to have such a caring man that wants to spend time with me 

But Its still weird to be back in New Jersey. 

The state I've spent so much time running from. 

Its strange how my life keeps going in circles. 

Im sure my life is about to get interesting and yet amazing on so many levels. 

This road trip has opened my eyes to a lot of things. 

Mostly that everything in life happens for a reason and no matter how much you may not like it at the moment that event is preparing you for something so much bigger that has yet to come. 

I would like to apologize but for about a month i am going to be taking a break from updating my blog. 

Its time to let my foot heal up and relax and get back to work. 

My next Blog Update will be in a month or two and i will post the link on my FB page when i decide to post it. 

Till next time Thank you for taking the time to read 

ALSO A SPECIAL THANK YOU TO MY DAD FOR MAKING IT POSSIBLE 

FOR ME TO MAKE IT HOME AND FOR ME AND B HAVING THE ADVENTURE BONDING TIME OF A LIFE TIME. 

TILL NEXT TIME 

I WONDER WHERE LIFE WILL TAKE ME NEXT....................

TO BE CONTINUED................